Bad Decisions....

I should have listened to the little voices that kept prompting me yesterday...."No, don't take a bite of that taco dip....no, refuse the offer of the chocolate....No, don't stop for the icecream cone....no, don't...." You get the picture. Well, I had 20 days free of binges and then succumbed yesterday. My tummy felt like it was on fire this morning from all the abuse.

What happened? Well, as my notes above indicate, I made some poor choices. I could give excuses like, "I'll eat the baked chips so the taco dip won't be too bad, although it's outside of the meals I had planned" or "My co-worker, who I've had some recent issues with, is inviting me to eat this and it would appear thankless and unkind if I didn't participate" or "my foot is hurting so I will take the day off of workouts, and since I've blown it already I'll stop for that icecream cone that I haven't had in so long"....I lost focus and the more I ate, the more I wanted, until I was physically and psychologically miserable! Dang it...I had 20 days free of binges!

Now, I'm back to square one. So far I'm doing very well today and I keep telling myself that these next couple of days are key to getting back on-track. I can't fall again because I've gotten used to eating healthy and making good choices! I DID have 20 days free of binging and that was a lovely chunk of time...Let's see how much more I can do THIS time.

So, I'm human. It isn't a total failure of all things. It isn't an all or nothing kind of deal with food. It's getting back to what makes me feel healthy, happy and clear-minded! So, here's to BFD1 and keeping my efforts more successful than not.