on order....

A couple of my DreamTeam friends suggested the book "Mindless Eating" after I expounded on my fall off the wagon of progress the other evening...I am confronted with irritation due to a co-worker's thoughtless comments, general chaos at work all morning, and increased anxiety regarding the costs of the trip to Greece we are planning after investigating the Euro exchange rate. The gentle nudge of a thought crossed my mind at lunch, "One cookie won't hurt..." RED LIGHT, RED LIGHT, GET OUT OF HERE NOW!!!!!" So, I came to write instead. As I started writing, I wanted to insert the picture and totally negated my first couple of paragraphs already written! Talk about anxiety!!!! But, I wouldn't be detoured and here I am with getting it out....

The co-worker probably doesn't realize that she hurt my feelings and she's a temporary worker who I don't expect to invest my future in. She's entitled to her stupid opinion...gee, wasn't that said tolerantly????

I started investigating plane fare and adding that to the amount quoted for the rest of our upcoming trip. Oy vey, I didn't realize how quickly this was adding up. I started thinking of things I could sell in the house to get some more money!!!

The work chaos is resolving by outside intervention....

Yes, I've certainly repeated the action of eating to subdue emotions in the past, but I want to do something different now! Writing about things has helped in the past. I expressed my state of confliction to a co-worker without going into details, but it felt good to say it out loud. Additionally, I read a meditation that was sent for the day and it fit well with the situation. After work, I plan on visiting the gym right away and have food planned for the rest of the day.

So, there's no reason to go off the deep end. I've got too much riding on my success! The short term goal for the week is 2 lbs and I haven't gotten there...yet. My DS2's wedding in September, our trip in September and our 25th wedding anniversary in June! I want to feel good for those occasions and cookies won't get me there. My screensaver marquee is "Stop....Breathe....Pray....Trust...." and that's just what I am going to do right now.